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“i am riding marsha-go-round”

hey, soul sisters!

1.9.11 || 12:00:00 AM

hi, everyone! :D I want you to meet someone.

tadaaaa! her name is Amanda.

she is one of the very first friends I made in junior high.

we've been best friends for about 7 years now.

she's one of the very few people who have access to almost everything in my heart.

to her I can be honest, and so can she to me.

in sufferings, she's one of the very few people who I can seek for consolations

without having to antagonize my pride.

we are quite alike in many things. sometimes it even still surprises me how we can be so alike.

for example, we are both hardcore potterheads.

I still haven't found anyone like her who I can talk to about Harry Potter, the way we talk about it.

we also have passion for fashion.

well, we're not actually fashion people,

but we really, really enjoy it (penikmat, cenderung bukan pelaku).

and this is something we both never really talk about to anyone else.

another thing we find ourselves alike in, is music.

we both used to play piano (although of course she's way better than me),

and can miss it more than anything.

we both hate to see our instruments left behind, untouched, and finally become obsolete.

we think of our instruments as friends. old friends.

and thinking about leaving them, or they're sitting still without us playing them,

can bring tears to our eyes. (silly, eh? but that's us! :p)

we also have similar taste for music.

for example, classical music, oldies, jazz, disneys.. hhas

we happen to love books. and we have similar taste for them.

we both love dreaming, and pretty much everything magical!

of course we are also different in many aspects.

for instance, physically, she's tall and slender, while I'm more like a mini person.

she also loves foods and find herself hungry almost all the time,

while I don't really like food (though I enjoy gastronomy) and find myself NOT hungry almost all the time.

and many other examples.

in short, I find her like a sister I never had.

we are alike in so many things, but we are also different in so many ways.

that makes each one of the two of us really unique, but 'complementary'.

I know she's having quite a rough time these days.

but, like she believes in me, I also believe that she will get through this.

she will come out a winner. we will BOTH come out winners.

so, semangaaaaaaaaaaat!

belajarlah dengan gembira. know in your heart that this will get you further in life.

and we will, someday, travel all around the world together (;

keep that beautiful smile of yours; you know you can call me whenever your sky is about to fall.

I will come right beside you and hold your sky with you :D

I love you, 'soul sister', Amanda!

God bless us all! :D

Labels: friendship

The Maria's Daughters Garage Sale - SUCCESS!

1.8.11 || 8:11:00 PM

Hey there, people!
I'm baaack :D
And with a more cheerful post, absolutely.
Enough stress in this world already.

Tonight, I'm gonna tell you guys about the garage sale my best friends and I threw.
It's called 'The Maria's Daughters' Garage Sale'.
Curious why?
First, meet the Maria's Daughters.

maya-monik-marsha (triple M :p)

We are three girls who've become best friends since junior high school, and happen to have (our own) mothers, who share the same name: 'Maria'.
So there goes our name: The Maria's Daughters. :D
Oh, and a lot of people think that we're practically real sisters because (they say) we look so alike. especially with our (petite) body figures who are just about the same.

We decided to throw a garage sale, in the first place because of my college tuition issue.
These two amazing girls have been soo amazingly kind. They're both having their holidays and they find the time to help me figuring that out.

Here are some pics of the three days garage sale! (;

And, all in all, it went pretty well.
Some of the money we collected will be going to my college tuition, and that's all because of the Maria's Daughters!
So, thanks, thanks, thanks, to you, Monik and Maya.
I can never thank you enough *hugsssss*
And also thanks to those who have come and helped as well: Jessica F., Gavin, Adelia C., Inez A., and those I cannot name one by one.

I'm eternally thankful!
May God always bless you all.. (':

Labels: friendship, give-thanks, justmylife, ultimate experience

5 signs of spoiled dog and that you need cesar millan

10.7.11 || 1:13:00 PM

she thinks it's appropriate to lie on the couch and occupy all the space so that YOU have nowhere to sit.

2)

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and that's not all. she really thinks it's major fun to lie on the couch, not giving YOU any space to sit, AND dominate the telly!

3)

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she thinks it's okay to chew and chew and chew her toy bone on the bed. yeah don't mind the saliva.

4)

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she enjoys (not) watching you playing the sims 3 on your laptop, decides to sleep with her head on the desk, making it impossible to fold it when YOUR eyes have felt all watery and YOU need some sleep.

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she considers sleeping in your room, and yeah, in your bed, with your blanket and pillow, necessary. otherwise she would start protesting and no one could get to sleep. uh-huh, uh-huh.

but THAT is not all.
she also likes to sit on your lap, likes to be pet (and will actually nudge you if you stop), likes to be massaged, and when she's feeling like it, she would refuse to eat from her bowl by herself, but rather ask me (yeah, just me - not my mom or si mbok) to feed her with my hands or to hold her bowl. *rolling eyes.

hhas and yes, you just met my dearest prissy, fatty, baby girl dog (well no, she's not a baby - she's 1 yr and a half), DIPSY. (; hhas you're one lucky brat, i love you too much!

on the other note, let me post some pics of my holiday. :DD
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these are the pics when my friends and i went to Sebastian's Coffee Shop (a cafe owned by my friend, Caesa) on June 25th.
1) i love them, like, a lot!
2) stoopid face :p
3) sulky face! (manyun, manyun)
4) just me making cute face HAHA
5) saranghaeyo! (btw those are stitch's paws, a late birthday present from us to monik - aren't they cute!)
6) making davin's dream come true: chinese mafia got some booties uh-huh, uh-huh
7) souvenirs from caesa for us! she went to Disneyland Hongkong and got us some uber cute key chains (x
8) my EPIC FAIL sensual face. GRAAAAA they all make fun of me for this. can you believe it???! *sure you can -.-"
hhas anyway i had a great, great day with you guys! me love you much!
(*･∀･)／♡＼(･∀･*)

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these are the pics when Y and I went to Mall Taman Anggrek! :DD
1) woohooo! ice skating! this was the first time for Y and he looked uber cute when he teetered around the rink! (x although sometimes it got scary when he grabbed me to avoid falling down. :p
2) he looked so happy when eating yeaa? :p
3) the Strawberry-Taro Mint Frozen Yoghurt with Fresh Strawberry, Kiwi, Mango, and Nata de Coco from Sour Sally that I bought him cause he said he wanted something fresh :p and a lil love note on the tissue along with it (*^^*)
4) waiting for taxi home :DD
i had a great, no, amazing, no, SUPER amazing day that day, thanks sayanggg.. (う˘▿˘)ε˘と)

hhas i guess that's all from me for now :DD
i'll see you again soon!
have a great holiday / good luck for exams / some fun at work / etc. etc. etc. you! hhas
LOTTA LOTTA LOTTA LOVE :*

Labels: friendship, giddywhoop, heart-this, justmylife, love

URS Promnite 2011 - Royal Wedding UK

19.6.11 || 2:12:00 PM

hiiyaa there, folks! :DD

as you probably remember, i am a member of Unpar Radio Station (URS). i am one of the producers.

well last nite, the URS family had a prom nite for the seniors (7th batch) who will no longer be in the management, but instead will leave and go into the alumni body. the 8th and 9th batch were the prom nite committee, and i was a member of the event organizer division.

the theme this year was Royal Wedding UK (URS Kingdom). so everyone needs to dress as creative as possible to fit in the theme. i wore my old dress, dressing as the bridesmaid. my other friends dressed as the guests. but some seniors were dressed pretty much to the nines (x

kak uci, my fellow producer and one of the 'graduating' seniors, dressed as the bride to our surprise! and kak ihsan, announcer and also one of the 'graduating' seniors, dressed as the groom. other graduating seniors were dressed as knight, priest (yeah, priest!), lady, even victoria and david beckham hhas

beside being an event organizer division member, i was also one of the dancers in the cabaret.

have you ever heard of an indonesian girl band called '7 icons'?

yeah, you got that right. the one with the debut single 'playboy' HAHA

well, that was the dance we danced at the end of the cabaret. and thank God we managed to kick it well. yaaaay :DD

it was kinda intimidating when people were cheering for me but thank God thank God thank God i didn't forget any move *relieved sigh.

and... i am glad to tell you that the party was a success :DD yaaaay

everyone had crazy fun, they enjoyed the performances (band and cabaret) and the games, the food was total yum-yum, the slow dance worked quite well (for the couples at least HAHA, while others just having fun watchin and cheerin for em), the crazy dance floor was a hit, and everyone also loved the movie from the committee and the awards.

well another good news from me is...

i won the voting for 'best producer of the year' award!

it was a surprise for me cause i thought one of the seniors like kak nuy or kak uci would've got it. i just thought i hadn't quite deserved it. well the award was kinda a whip for me to work harder, especially since i was elected as chief producer for the upcoming academic year.

so... i promise i'm gonna work my best! :DD

here are some pics of the nite

the 'graduating' batch 7

the royal bride and groom : p (see how beautiful she was? kak uci, i heart you!)

the king, the prince, and the knight (can you guess which is who?)

david and victoria beckham (ehem ehem)

the cuteee 'waitresses' a.k.a. the 'food division'! : p hhas

the bride and her bridesmaid (me, me, me with the beautiful kak uci! : p )

some of the committee (:

with kak aldo and kak nisa!

novia and me - yin and yang! : p *do you notice?

and look at the gorgeous set: good job decor team! *the camera set actually flashed for real!

me and 'bapak penghulu' or the official who officiated people's marriages in indonesia : p btw is it just me... or do i look taller in this pic?? yaaaay *jellyfish dance.

added on june 20th: wait, just remembered i wore 7cms high heels. no wonder! *sigh

congratulations batch 7 seniors!

we love you..

URS - WE WORK, WE PLAY, WE ARE FAMILY!

Labels: friendship, giddywhoop, justmylife, ultimate experience

i've learned that...

15.6.11 || 11:41:00 AM

You can't live your life for other people. You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love. -Nicholas Sparks

Remember the previous post, when i told a story about 'the girl'?

well, most likely you can already guess that it was about me (;

today, i am not gonna post anything mellow-y.

instead... i'm gonna post something about... choice, and thanksgiving :DD

well, despite the enigma i've put myself into, there are things i've discovered along the winding road i chose.

First.

I’ve learned-
that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

and that applies for me as well.

i did choose 'love', and it had cost me one of my best friends.

i guess i've always known what was coming for me, but somehow somewhere, i kept that hope that she would eventually forgive me, that she would want to see me happy. i always said to my self, hey, if things were reversed, i knew that i would want that.

but that's that. knew - knowing. how could i know for sure that i too would be able to forgive so easily?

well as a matter of fact, this kinda thing happened to me when i was in primary school. i know, you will say 'puppy love *scoff*'. but it hurt me as well when my best friend hooked up with the boy i liked. however, i helped them hook up, and accept *although rather tearfully at first* that they were both happier together than if the three of us just walked around by our selves.

well guess i'll never know for sure how it felt to be my (former?) best friend. so i can't *and i won't* judge her, or even myself, because she as well would never know what it feels like to be me, and choosing what i chose right in my shoes.

i mean, i have a picture of the feeling, but i will never feel it exactly like she would. and vice versa.

so if i may be so bold, can i just say 'i'm really, really sorry that i have to hurt you in the process. i never intended to hurt you. but if i have to be really honest, i don't regret that i made this choice - to fight for my love. i just hope that one day you'll be able to let this go off your chest, and love, and live to the fullest again.'

Second.

I’ve learned-
that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you are to learn to forgive yourself.

At first, i found it hard to forgive myself. i blamed my self for hurting her, for trampling on her hopes, and probably made it difficult for her to ever trust people again. During those days, i would 'punish' myself by looking at her facebook status *which talks about betrayal quite a lot* and mourn the truth that for once, i AM the bad guy. i let her hurt me through all that status because well, i thought i deserved that.

i didn't even listen to what my other best friends like jessi, amanda, ita, nana, monik, or caesa said that it was not really my fault. that i didn't 'snatch' anything from her. that it was a matter of love and heart, and so who was to blame but no one?

but then i read a few things about forgiveness. that i shouldn't let people hurt me. that it was only a shortcut to be able to think of myself better.

so i started to learn to forgive myself.

i now fully realized that i did what i believed was best for me, and my lover. that i too did hurt her, but i had sincerely apologized. and whether i like it or not, it is her choice to forgive me and be free, or not.

as to when i would be able to forgive myself completely, well, it remains unknown. the process hasn't ended yet, but at least it has started.

Third.

I’ve learned-
that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings, and standing up for what you believe.

I always said that the reason why i didn't stand aside for my best friend and avoid hurting people's feelings like i usually did was because i believed about what i felt to this guy, about what we have, and about what we hope for the future, as you might have noticed in the past posts.

what i didn't mention was, during the process, i experienced a few times how this faith got shaken. sometimes i wondered, what if all this was proven to be wrong. what if we separated along the way. didn't it mean that i had hurt my best friend for nothing?

but occasions after occasions proved to me that those worries were all non sense. i love him now, he loves me now, so what does it matter? in the future, a few things might change and it will, because what doesn't? whether it will change for the better or worse, i don't know yet. but i am sure that our love is worth to fight for, and i am grateful that i had the courage to choose the winding road and take the risk for what i believe in: US. (':

Fourth.

I’ve learned-
that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

Along the journey, i discovered that i do still have these amazing, wonderful people behind me, that support and love me no matter what i choose.

My family - thanks, Mom, for believing in me that i would never mean any harm to anyone.

My bestfriends - thanks Amanda, for accompanying me the whole last night i met her where nothing seemed right; thanks Jessi, for always telling me, that it is a matter of heart and love, and to help me forgive myself; thanks Monik, Maya, Caesa, Chin-chin, for making everything more bearable that day.

My lover - thanks Yoseph, for accompanying me thru that night even if just by SMS and phone (: thanks for making me feel better. thanks for yosephizing my life. :*

So in the end, i can proudly say that.. i've learned more about friendship, love, forgiveness, choice, and being grateful.

This experience has helped me grow, hopefully to be a better person. (:

I’ve learned-
that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. -Omer B. Washington

Labels: c'est la vie, friendship, justmylife, love, quotes

cold war

13.6.11 || 7:48:00 AM

so here goes.

a girl had a best friend.

her best friend liked a guy. the kinda guy that people would say 'he's got the look, the talent, the brain'. she confided lots of the story and her feelings to the girl.

the girl, on the other half, during all the up-and-downs and all unpredictable events, happened to be friends with the guy.

it didn't start out planned, it just happened.

to the girl, you can believe it or not, it was never the number one factor all those people first capture of him.

to her, it was not the look, it was not the talent, it was not the brain.

for she had known from long ago that he indeed got the look, and he indeed got the talent, and he indeed got the brain, and that indeed he was dreamed by most likely all the girls around her.

but all those were never the ones that made her fall.

the girl wasn't quite sure how and when she exactly fell for the guy.

she just knew that she was really comfortable around him, he made her feel safe and happy.

he confided the secrets he never told people to this girl.

he could be on the phone with this girl for hours.

she could be just the way she was whenever she was with the guy.

the guy brought out the best in her.

but the girl, not aware of the love growing inside her, thought he just considered her as a friend.

after all, he was thought by everyone as 'the star', and happened to have a lot of friends which are, well, girls.

so time passed by.

the girl felt the strange and uneasy feelings inside her grew stronger and stronger.

she started to worry, if she had fallen for this guy.

but she told no one.

she thought, 'what's the use of making fuss of nothing? besides, he would never think of me, i could never win his heart, well, i wouldn't try to, for the sake of my best friend.'

so it was all shut tight in her heart.

she stopped encouraging her best friend so often for she felt like a hypocrite, she didn't say a thing when not asked.

she pretended to like other guy, just to convince her own heart that nothing had happened.

sometimes, she couldn't stop crying at nights when she was having war inside herself.

well, for this was the case: the clock was ticking, they were graduating soon.

she really had to make up her mind, whether she would confess her feelings to her best friend and try to win the heart of the guy, or if she would just keep everything shut.

she had no answer. not yet.

she kept having those two persons most endeared to her heart close to her, and just be happy for those rare moments.

she kept loving and caring for her best friend,

and she also kept caring for the guy - though with him *she supposed* unnoticed of it.

but then that day came.

graduation day.

after all night of partying, hugging her best friends tight like it was the last time, she got a surprise. or a shock, if we want to be more precise.

the guy - whom was 'the guy' for two girls at this exact time in this story - got up on stage.

after a few pauses, he finally said that he liked the girl. the girl that thought that he would think nothing of their friendship. the girl that thought that it was unlikely that something could actually happen between them.

well, the rest of the story is rather clear.

the girl postponed the clarification until she had spoken to the best friend she had unintentionally hurt.

but the best friend said nothing but forgiveness and blessings.

she could barely believe her luck - that she had such an amazing best friend yet she also got to have the guy she most loved.

happy ending? well, not really.

time, again as it always does, passed by.

it turned out that her best friend had not really forgiven nor forgotten about all those past events.

the girl felt strongly guilty. for she had made her own best friend suffer, and worst, lost faith in thing called 'friendship' and 'hope'.

she apologized several times. she did not break up with the guy, though. not with her heart so sure of their love.

the girl then tried everything she could to avoid breaking her best friend's heart even more.

she did not post the status nor pics in facebook, she avoided posting walls to her guy's profile.

but it was hard. it was hard to keep the best friend from hurting while not making the guy like the second priority.

she also had to make sure that she did not make her guy uncomfortable with the posting.

but then the guy wondered to the girl, 'why are you so exclusive about us dating?'

so the girl changed everything.

she now dared to post walls, pics, status, and everything.

BUT, she also kept it so that it would not be seen by her best friend.

she always hit the button 'DO NOT PUBLISH' in facebook whenever she posted pics.

she always erased the notification in her profile of her posting walls to her guy.

however, the story ended *hopefully just for a while* with the best friend blocked her facebook profile.

the girl then realized that her best friend no longer wanted to contact her, or to know anything about her anymore.

so she backed off. she didn't want to confront and push her.

maybe, just maybe, some things are just too hurtful to forgive.

a few days ago, the girl met her best friend for the first time after a long while.

they did not greet each other. they did not look at each other.

it was as if they two did not recognize the other's presence.

solid ignorance, ended up in total pain for the girl.

how she longed to greet her (former?) bestfriend, to say how beautiful she was that night, to ask how the MC-thingy she got was going, or even just to smile at her and have her smile back at her.

but nothing happened. the girl went home early for she was sick on that day.

leaving everything behind.

leaving the cold war arena.

leaving her (former?) best friend, with her boyfriend on the phone and tears welling in her eyes.

Labels: c'est la vie, friendship, love

IGABAKAR time

15.6.09 || 10:28:00 PM

IGABAKAR time indeed! lol

sooo.. today we had BBQ party at bhowo's base *st.monika bunda-vmm
it was meant as a farewell party, especially wid mrs.v and mr.h. :]
and it rocked....!! lol some of us, inc. me, got there early to help fixing d treats. yumm!!
it all looked *n tasted* delicioso!! nyehehe beef+chicken+shrimp+sausage satay, macaroni, french fries, n some other menu. i was sooooo full. lol

we had zillions pictures *credit esp. to tewe* of IGABAKAR.. we had fun..

cha-to2

cha-dvin-csan

mau2-csy-del-cha

kaki acha - badan davin

davin

laiye-cha-csy-monjul

n i had tears. lol stupid i know. but it brought tears to my eyes when i sat there on d swing, looking at all of them.. all of my friends whom had accompanied me for a year. an unnoticed passing-by year.. their laughters, their stupid jokes, their spirit, their wit.. GOSH! i've been extremely melodramatic these days but this is d peak. i felt so S-A-D dat we're (IGABAKAR) separating. and time left us only A YEAR in hi schooolll... uwaaaaa!! nooo...

i'm not ready yet. i dun wanna leave my teenagehood, my moment to be free, to be naughty, to have fun.. i dun wanna leave SANUR BSD, my second home for 6 years.. T.T i'm afraid yet so thrilled to face dat whole new world: university.

just like isoy, d thing i fear d most is.. to forget n be forgotten. i wonder.. what it would be in 5 yrs, 10 yrs frm now. will it be d same?? will they remember me?? if i die young, will they cry over it n come to my funeral??

it's not graduation. but by d end of d second term of school, i must feel kinda dis way.

"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives

Where we're gonna be when we turn 25

I keep thinking times will never change

Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave NEXT year we won't be coming back

No more hanging out cause we're on a different track

And if you got something that you need to say

You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound

And I keep thinking of that night in June

I didn't know much of love but it came too soon
And there was me and you and then we got real blue

Stay at home talking on the telephone

We would get so excited and we'd get so scared

Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair

And this is how it feels

As we go on

We remember all the times we had together

And as our lives change

Come whatever

We will still be Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs

And we make the big money

When we look back now will our jokes still be funny?

Will we still remember everything we learned in school?

Still be trying to break every single rule

Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?

Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

And this is how it feels

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?

Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly"

(Vit.C - Graduation)

I LURV IGABAKAR.. <3

Labels: friendship, giddywhoop, ultimate experience

i lurv my friends :]

14.6.09 || 11:03:00 PM

I DO HEART MY FRIENDS!!

i had quite an excellent weekend. i'll give u a quick recount. lol

friday 12.06.09:
isoy's blastday at pizza hut bsd. it was a real blast! lol
at d beginning i was mellow out of nowhere
*cissy, u infected me with ur melodramaticism!! lol kiddin hun.
but thanks to my bestest brother, gavin, i felt MUCH better.
he quick-called me n sang me a children's mandarin song; well, our fave song actually.
it was about someone, cheering his/her bestfriend up n promising he/she will be there for his/her bestfriend forever. lol d bad side from dis quick call?? well, it made me cried a bit. lol embarassing i know!! but i was kinda overwhelmed. plus, caesa came to d party n i just felt so happy to see her again - finally. ;)

may-caes-cha

banyak bgd ah! hwe2

veda-cha-caes

ini malah lebih banyak lagi. ;)

saturday 13.06.09:

monik's blastday!! lol it started late a bit but it was great. i was so happy bcus finally, my besties can gather all complete!! x) caesa, niq, maya, metta, acha!! plus chin2. and even more plussss.. i got 2 new great, great friends. lol flo n alvie.. d power rangers girl!! x) they totally rocked.. n i lurv them already! lol all nite long i was hugging all my friends, one-by-one, or just all-at-a-time! :D again, i was mellow n low-spirited at first. but.. it got better. thanks to my homegirl, jessi! i owe u one, sweetie.. :) we had much fun..

well yeah, errors happened here n there. like rain right when candle time, or d fireworks wouldn't light, or.. yeaaa. u know. errors. lol but like forrest gump said, "shit happens". but no matter what, we still had muchos fun. especially d fireworks part.. n of course, d hang out part!! i really lurv my friends.. n i'm so thankful i have them :)

cha-flo-vie

metta-cha-may-sha

ranger biru-ranger pink-ranger kuning

sunday 14.06.09:

it started quite bad bcus i had to go to n go home from church over n over again for some times. while i hadn't even got to go to d mass!! i was preparing for niq's second surprise party tomorrow - actually it's to hand her our gift. ;) *i really hope niq doesnt read my blog tonite. nyehehe yeaa. so i went there in d morning to meet metta n fixed d card etc.

n finally, i was planning to go to church at nite. supposedly, i met my bro, gavin, there to finish up all d stuffs for monik. but he texted me n suddenly canceled it. okay. i felt like, "fine then, nevermind. really. but what d heck i should say to my mom??" bcus she was against d idea dat i walked to church alone at nite. i myself wasnt too afraid bout it, but well, u know moms.

so i texted gavin n asked him his permission to lie to my mom dat i would still be going wid him. anndddd dat corny bro of mine called me n shouted, "no lying to mom!!". n so, yeaa, u must have figured it out; i was panicking then. really, what else should i effin say to my mom??

but then he laughed like crazy. huuuuh. n i found out dat he was lying. -.-" really funny,ko. so he picked me up n we followed d mass together. oh! at d mass, i met a funny lil boy, maybe like 3-4 yrs old. he was soooo cuteeeeeee. he smiled n was starin at me all d time that gvn teased me dat i've got a new admirer *very funny. but i lurv dat lil guy. lol he was so friendly. he waved at me all d time, he gave me his beautiful smiles, n he totally cheered my day up. >.<

well then, finally... after d mass, gvn took me to mc'd bcus he made me buy him ice cream. grrrrrr. lol but he also bought me french fries, so it's even. x) *well, it's actually not, is it?? lol i thank God dat i have a brother like him n my besties like niq, cissy, manda, etc. >.<

well, to sum things up, my bro n i had much fun. even including d part when we thought dat my mom was mad bcus we suddenly went to mc'd out of nowhere. lol but thank God, she wasn't mad. she even joked bout it. nyehehe lurv u mom!! i know dat my mom really lurv my closest friends n think of them as her own children. especially my bro, gvn. so tonite, my mom made him an ultimatum. she said dat gavin should take care of himself, shouldnt skip school so much, n MUST have great grades n pass 11th grade. if not, she wont take him as my bro n he couldnt take me anywhere anymore. lol it was embarassing n i kinda wonder, why oh why on earth i have a corny mom n bro like them?? *not that im not thankful about it. lol

anyways. what i can say about my weekend is: perfecto. :]
n all i can say to ALL my closest friends n family is: i LURV u guys.. ^.^

i wish my besties+fam all d happiness in d world n may God's blessings be poured unto them.
and now.. signing off, folks!! :] thx for being special friends of mine.. yeaa! all of u! ;) mwawchh muchos lurv.. takecare~

Labels: friendship, giddywhoop, justmylife

balada lee dong taeng dan sepucuk puisi lama

3.6.09 || 10:38:00 PM

And would it have been worth it, after all,
After the cups, the marmalade, the tea,
Among the porcelain, among some talk of you and me,
Would it have been worth while,
To have bitten off the matter with a smile,
To have squeezed the universe into a ball
To roll it toward some overwhelming question...
- T.S. Eliot (The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock)

uwaaa. lol i kinda like that piece of T.S. Eliot. would it be worth it?? nyehehe
such an intriguing question. and that's probably why i decided to let go of pmpek. he's been troubling my mind too much too soon. lol he's been ruining my mood and is it THAT worth it?? nuh-uh. i don't think so. it's gotta stop. right now. right here. lol :]

that's GOOD news. hwe2 aaaaand!! something even more juicy.
*oooh i thank GOD only so few people read this blog - so i could just write rather freely and randomly, just to ease my mind. :]
soo. this afternoon at school, i was having crazy time with once n chin2. yeaa. prefer that to droolin due to freaky-non-essential-schoolin-BOREDOM. lol
and this fortunate insanity, luckily, brought me to an amazin "thing". from now on, let's just call "it" lee dong taeng. nyahaha an acronym of what?? not gonna tell!! lol "it" was very good to look at, "it" was beautiful, "it" was cute, "it" was uhmmmm.. let's just say STRESS-KILLER. lol

nomu saranghae, lee dong taeng!! :]

that's all for today. signin off! lol

P.S. especially for my homegirl maya.. you go, girl!! fight!! cheer up!! we all lurv u muchos muchos muchos. :] mwawchh gbu..

Labels: friendship, giddywhoop, heart-this

happyhappyhappy

30.5.09 || 10:47:00 PM

people! i'm back in charge now. lol finally got time to write sumthin on. but im actually feelin kinda lazy to include d detail. sooo be patient with me, with only points of events, and.. PICS. lol it should be enough, isnt it??

well well. i had a sleepover bash in jessi's base may 20th!! lol with cissy, inez, adel, jessi (absolutely), chika, n desi. and.. two intruders: gvn davin. nyehehe at d night, we hung out in mc'd bsd with ming2 + didi till like 23.30. lol d guys in mc'd must be flippin out. we were so SO loud. :) yea after we got kicked out nicely, we went straight to jc's base and just mingled. at about 02.00 in d morning, gvn n davin backed out. while the girls...? got crazy till like 04.00 in d morning. nyehehe

aaaah lurv them muchos muchos muchos. *smoochsmooch :)
thx a bunch for this whole joyhappinessgiddiness u guys given me. lol

and now. movin on to the next subject... lippo!! hwe2 this friday, cissy took *read: dragged* me out to lippo. etu n yoseph were also in d plan. i enjoyed that muchos! lol we've got some serious stupid pics in iconlife and an adrenaline rush (for me, it was just a laugh - nyahaha! snobgirl) on d jetcoaster. etu chickened out n didnt take d ride. but that's ok. we won't dare to spill his gut by forcin 'im. nyehehe here are our pics.

nyehehe thx muchos muchos muchos!! x)

hoahhm. signing off for now. ;) gbu..

Labels: friendship, justmylife, ultimate experience

oasis

18.5.09 || 6:38:00 PM

i promised u d details of my last trip to sanggar akar, didn't i?? nyehehhehe
well well. i'll give u a cover but won't dip my fingers in d details. lol too busy for that now! what can i say is, sanggar akar, dumpit, and places alike really are my oasis of tranquility. *nyeheheh look at my words! my, my. everytime i visit em, everytime i get back from visiting em... it sets my heart on fire - a burning spirit to do something more. to do better. it also sets my heart at peace - a chance to be absent from aallll mortal cares.

i lurv desboy, johan, saneri, agus, pak de.. all the people in sanggar akar. it always feels like home, and they are all great people. really. i lurv k irene, tia, yuni, engkur, madi, idin, esa, upay... all the people in dumpit. lol i'm even smiling like an idiot now when i'm thinking of em! x)

uwaaa. lol i'm in a mixture of everythin. nyeheheheh
it's good to be happy bcus of somethin worthwhile. it's good to be happy - not depending from my lurv situation with pmpek - but from people around, the way they touch my heart.

and to that, i should give more and more credits to my oasis of happiness, my happy charms:
cissy - gavin - inez - adel - jessi - monik - maya - adel - caesa - amanda DW - bangdavid (binus e.com) - grace (binus e.com) - nadya (binus e.com)

and of course, my mom - sleepy - bangben - endy - k dita - ci nike

all of whom which have made me soooo happy. only those can make me burst in laughter like a retarded and insanely, i'm lucky to have u guys. x)

i lurv u, people. i really do. without u, i'm nothin.

so, all i can say is..
감사합니다, 제 친구야.. 너무 사랑해.. :)
thx muchos, amigos.. lurv u so damnmuch.

*cant wait till our sleepoverbash dis weds!! lol
be ready to have fun go mad, jay and the crew ft. d'boys..!!

Labels: friendship, giddywhoop, justmylife, justmythought