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*LADY-A!
Hiyaa there, everyone!
My name is Marsha, but people always call me Acha. Hence, my name is Lady A. *i know, i know.
I am currently 19, meaning I am enjoying my last year of ages '1-something'. I am a dreamy, random girl; a fusion between mature and childish who cannot stop thinking. I love a lot of things, now watch me rock my world *and probably yours as well.
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a letter from the wasted
23.6.09 || 3:16:00 PM

A Letter from the Wasted


You come to me whenever you feel bored; when you’re sick of your world, tired of your life.

You come to me usually ONLY when you feel it all.

And I keep waiting. I keep waiting for you to come. I keep standing there, smiling.

Just because I know one day you’ll need me, one day you’ll see.

And then, there you go.

Slowly walking, closer to me. Resting on my shoulder, telling me stories.

YOUR stories.

Yet I still feel happy and proud. I’m the one you can count on.

I’m the one you trust, the one who knows the whole story.

But then, days pass by. Your life gets back in its exciting way, and here I am.

Left behind. Un-needed. Not then.

But that’s okay. I never complain once, do I?

I’m happy for your good tidings, merry story, your victory.

I’m sad for your regret, disappointment, and defeat.

Then I know, I’m not really the one.

I’m not really the ONLY one you call when you’re sober.

I’m not really the ONLY one you tell your secrets.

I’m not really the one important to you.

Then who am I?

Because then I found out, there are people you share the more.

There are people you hang out with more.

So who am I to you, really?

Am I really that insignificant?

Just a phone number on your list?

Just a phone number that exists whenever the others do not?

And do you even notice that…??

I’m never too busy, too sick, too sad, too happy, too focused WITH MY LIFE

to listen to you, to lend you an ear and a shoulder.

Yes.

i AM disappointed.

i AM sad.

i feel WASTED.

Now you’re leaving. Just a week or two…

But why is it to me like ages??

Why does my heart ache whenever I think of your departure??

Why am I afraid there will be one MORE someone you can count on??

Maybe I fear that one day, you’ll bee too busy to look back and find me.

Maybe I fear that one day, you’ll have TOO MANY someone you can count on.

Maybe I fear that one day, you’ll have too many numbers on your list –

and you’ll erase me.

My phone number.


0815186****

Delete this contact?

Yes No


Inspired by my dear sister, a lil of my experience, and especially…

My dear old pal that’s feeling wasted, just like stated in the letter.

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IGABAKAR time
15.6.09 || 10:28:00 PM

IGABAKAR time indeed! lol

sooo.. today we had BBQ party at bhowo's base *st.monika bunda-vmm
it was meant as a farewell party, especially wid mrs.v and mr.h. :]
and it rocked....!! lol some of us, inc. me, got there early to help fixing d treats. yumm!!
it all looked *n tasted* delicioso!! nyehehe beef+chicken+shrimp+sausage satay, macaroni, french fries, n some other menu. i was sooooo full. lol

we had zillions pictures *credit esp. to tewe* of IGABAKAR.. we had fun..


cha-to2


cha-dvin-csan

mau2-csy-del-cha


kaki acha - badan davin

davin

laiye-cha-csy-monjul
n i had tears. lol stupid i know. but it brought tears to my eyes when i sat there on d swing, looking at all of them.. all of my friends whom had accompanied me for a year. an unnoticed passing-by year.. their laughters, their stupid jokes, their spirit, their wit.. GOSH! i've been extremely melodramatic these days but this is d peak. i felt so S-A-D dat we're (IGABAKAR) separating. and time left us only A YEAR in hi schooolll... uwaaaaa!! nooo...

i'm not ready yet. i dun wanna leave my teenagehood, my moment to be free, to be naughty, to have fun.. i dun wanna leave SANUR BSD, my second home for 6 years.. T.T i'm afraid yet so thrilled to face dat whole new world: university.

just like isoy, d thing i fear d most is.. to forget n be forgotten. i wonder.. what it would be in 5 yrs, 10 yrs frm now. will it be d same?? will they remember me?? if i die young, will they cry over it n come to my funeral??

it's not graduation. but by d end of d second term of school, i must feel kinda dis way.

"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave NEXT year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love but it came too soon
And there was me and you and then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember all the times we had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly"
(Vit.C - Graduation)
I LURV IGABAKAR.. <3

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i lurv my friends :]
14.6.09 || 11:03:00 PM

I DO HEART MY FRIENDS!!

i had quite an excellent weekend. i'll give u a quick recount. lol

friday 12.06.09:
isoy's blastday at pizza hut bsd. it was a real blast! lol

at d beginning i was mellow out of nowhere
*cissy, u infected me with ur melodramaticism!! lol kiddin hun.
but thanks to my bestest brother, gavin, i felt MUCH better.
he quick-called me n sang me a children's mandarin song; well, our fave song actually.
it was about someone, cheering his/her bestfriend up n promising he/she will be there for his/her bestfriend forever. lol d bad side from dis quick call?? well, it made me cried a bit. lol embarassing i know!! but i was kinda overwhelmed. plus, caesa came to d party n i just felt so happy to see her again - finally. ;)


may-caes-cha



banyak bgd ah! hwe2

veda-cha-caes

ini malah lebih banyak lagi. ;)

saturday 13.06.09:
monik's blastday!! lol it started late a bit but it was great. i was so happy bcus finally, my besties can gather all complete!! x) caesa, niq, maya, metta, acha!! plus chin2. and even more plussss.. i got 2 new great, great friends. lol flo n alvie.. d power rangers girl!! x) they totally rocked.. n i lurv them already! lol all nite long i was hugging all my friends, one-by-one, or just all-at-a-time! :D again, i was mellow n low-spirited at first. but.. it got better. thanks to my homegirl, jessi! i owe u one, sweetie.. :) we had much fun..

well yeah, errors happened here n there. like rain right when candle time, or d fireworks wouldn't light, or.. yeaaa. u know. errors. lol but like forrest gump said, "shit happens". but no matter what, we still had muchos fun. especially d fireworks part.. n of course, d hang out part!! i really lurv my friends.. n i'm so thankful i have them :)
cha-flo-vie
metta-cha-may-sha

ranger biru-ranger pink-ranger kuning

sunday 14.06.09:
it started quite bad bcus i had to go to n go home from church over n over again for some times. while i hadn't even got to go to d mass!! i was preparing for niq's second surprise party tomorrow - actually it's to hand her our gift. ;) *i really hope niq doesnt read my blog tonite. nyehehe yeaa. so i went there in d morning to meet metta n fixed d card etc.
n finally, i was planning to go to church at nite. supposedly, i met my bro, gavin, there to finish up all d stuffs for monik. but he texted me n suddenly canceled it. okay. i felt like, "fine then, nevermind. really. but what d heck i should say to my mom??" bcus she was against d idea dat i walked to church alone at nite. i myself wasnt too afraid bout it, but well, u know moms.

so i texted gavin n asked him his permission to lie to my mom dat i would still be going wid him. anndddd dat corny bro of mine called me n shouted, "no lying to mom!!". n so, yeaa, u must have figured it out; i was panicking then. really, what else should i effin say to my mom??
but then he laughed like crazy. huuuuh. n i found out dat he was lying. -.-" really funny,ko. so he picked me up n we followed d mass together. oh! at d mass, i met a funny lil boy, maybe like 3-4 yrs old. he was soooo cuteeeeeee. he smiled n was starin at me all d time that gvn teased me dat i've got a new admirer *very funny. but i lurv dat lil guy. lol he was so friendly. he waved at me all d time, he gave me his beautiful smiles, n he totally cheered my day up. >.<

well then, finally... after d mass, gvn took me to mc'd bcus he made me buy him ice cream. grrrrrr. lol but he also bought me french fries, so it's even. x) *well, it's actually not, is it?? lol i thank God dat i have a brother like him n my besties like niq, cissy, manda, etc. >.<

well, to sum things up, my bro n i had much fun. even including d part when we thought dat my mom was mad bcus we suddenly went to mc'd out of nowhere. lol but thank God, she wasn't mad. she even joked bout it. nyehehe lurv u mom!! i know dat my mom really lurv my closest friends n think of them as her own children. especially my bro, gvn. so tonite, my mom made him an ultimatum. she said dat gavin should take care of himself, shouldnt skip school so much, n MUST have great grades n pass 11th grade. if not, she wont take him as my bro n he couldnt take me anywhere anymore. lol it was embarassing n i kinda wonder, why oh why on earth i have a corny mom n bro like them?? *not that im not thankful about it. lol


anyways. what i can say about my weekend is: perfecto. :]
n all i can say to ALL my closest friends n family is: i LURV u guys.. ^.^
i wish my besties+fam all d happiness in d world n may God's blessings be poured unto them.
and now.. signing off, folks!! :] thx for being special friends of mine.. yeaa! all of u! ;) mwawchh muchos lurv.. takecare~

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dramarama obama - part II
10.6.09 || 11:38:00 AM

my dearie friends.. :)
i wanna thank u all for ur great, inspirative, critical comments on my last post. i reaaaally appreciate it. it's such an enlightment. lol

but here n now, i wanna apologise to all who think that my last post is unfair n terribly judging the moslems. i'm really sorry, i never meant to do that.

by criticizing obama's second sentence on islam in indonesia, i didn't mean that EVERY single moslem is racist n extrimist. :) i really did not. i actually only wanted to emphasise n remind us all that we still have homework, despite all the good words obama put in for us. i just wanna remind us all that there's still injustice - regarding difficulty on issuing religious building permit, mistrust or stereotyping. i'm not talking about moslem only. i talk about us all. :)

so again, i'm terribly sorry *especially to my twincess, once.. >.<
please note that i'm not underestimating anyone, any religion, anything.. n i will never. :)
and please feel free to remind me if someday i write anything with a tendency to judge. or just ask me if u feel so. i'll make it clear n will gladly apologise if i really do anything wrong.

peace out. :) lurv u muchos guys! ure my inspiration.

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dramarama obama
4.6.09 || 8:51:00 PM

hiiyaa there, people!! :)
did any of u watch obama this noon?? he was on tv, deliverin his speech in Cairo Uni. - Egypt. soooo. i'm gonna tidbit a lil bout it. how does dat sound?? lol i wont take "boring" as an answer.
x)

obama, university of cairo - egypt


anyways. d first thing appearing in my mind was... i felt even MORE respectful to mr.obama. he was.. commited n he seemed so determined in building a better relationship with moslems around d world. a new beginning. he humbly said that islam has contributed so much throughout the mankind history. and i think, he was right. i mean, world culture was woven also from d islam threads, right?? :) let's just remember about ottoman, etc.

and i think, obama delivered quite a courageous speech. he undoubtfully stated not only about his promises for moslems countries (he promised for the U.S. troops to leave Iraq as early as the midst july, health and education support for aghanistan+pakistan, diplomacy with iran regarding nuclear weapon, and peace reconciliation between israel-palestine) and the fight against extrimist+terrorist, but also his strong request for moslems countries to look at the united states with the right perspective. no longer as enemy or a tyrany, but more as a partner.


i personally think that obama inherited such heavy burden, especially left by w. bush. the mistrust between moslems countries and the united states, the cynical skepticism toward the united states' intention, etc. but still i think of obama as a courageous man, who believes what he said and does what he could - d best he could. yet skeptical parts of our world think of him as "a PR campaign cooked up by the CIA".


*more detailed opinion of most african/middle east people, visit http://www.huffingtonpost.com/annelle-sheline/egyptians-excitement-for_b_210568.html


yeaa. i think it's understandable that they doubt obama and the united states. they've suffered too much especially in d time of w.bush's regime. hummmmmm.


at least, let's just hope that this new beginning can really bring something good to the world and our mankind and wish obama gudluck. we can help by signing petition online, being well-informed about our world situation, and just being nice+tolerant to anyone anywhere anytime anyhow. :)


ooh!! btw. there's one line of obama's speech dat intrigued my mind. he said, more or less like this, "islam is tolerance. i learned about this in indonesia - where christians can worship freely in this largest islam country."


i was kinda reluctant on dis one - not that i decline his opinion that islam is tolerance. no. i do feel the same about that. what i pitied was his second sentence about indonesia. i pitied the fact that i know, that there are still many christians who meet dead-ends in worshipping Jesus. the difficulty of church building/developing permission, etc. i dun say that this happens everyday, everywhere, supported by everyone. no. i just wanna remind us all, that aren't we ashamed by the fact that the world is applauding for us for something that isn't truly true??


i thank God that indonesia indeed has shown quite a good progress in tolerance. but there's still a gap between religions. there are still stereotyping, mistrust, and wrong perceptions. let's fix that together, people. let us be the TRUE model - not just from the outer appearance but also inside out. let's make indonesia a country that can lead our world to tolerance and peace. :) a big dream. uh-huh, i know. but it's not impossible, pal. obama believes in changes. let's make a change in indonesia. let's make a change in this world.



i believe we can.


ciao ciao people. muchos lurv and blessings! ;)

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balada lee dong taeng dan sepucuk puisi lama
3.6.09 || 10:38:00 PM

And would it have been worth it, after all,
After the cups, the marmalade, the tea,
Among the porcelain, among some talk of you and me,
Would it have been worth while,
To have bitten off the matter with a smile,
To have squeezed the universe into a ball
To roll it toward some overwhelming question...
- T.S. Eliot (The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock)

uwaaa. lol i kinda like that piece of T.S. Eliot. would it be worth it?? nyehehe
such an intriguing question. and that's probably why i decided to let go of pmpek. he's been troubling my mind too much too soon. lol he's been ruining my mood and is it THAT worth it?? nuh-uh. i don't think so. it's gotta stop. right now. right here. lol :]

that's GOOD news. hwe2 aaaaand!! something even more juicy.
*oooh i thank GOD only so few people read this blog - so i could just write rather freely and randomly, just to ease my mind. :]
soo. this afternoon at school, i was having crazy time with once n chin2. yeaa. prefer that to droolin due to freaky-non-essential-schoolin-BOREDOM. lol
and this fortunate insanity, luckily, brought me to an amazin "thing". from now on, let's just call "it" lee dong taeng. nyahaha an acronym of what?? not gonna tell!! lol "it" was very good to look at, "it" was beautiful, "it" was cute, "it" was uhmmmm.. let's just say STRESS-KILLER. lol

nomu saranghae, lee dong taeng!! :]

that's all for today. signin off! lol


P.S. especially for my homegirl maya.. you go, girl!! fight!! cheer up!! we all lurv u muchos muchos muchos. :] mwawchh gbu..

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